A Teacher & A Diver

Hooray! It's holiday!!!! :D It's time for shopping, movies, novels, travel~ hehe~ just by reading the first line, u can guess i like shopping the most :) however, personally...shopping has always been a moral dilemma... cuz I dont like to waste money for myself~ haishhh~ anyway...Holiday is also the time for me to read others' blogs.  so...ya..i read a blog...  my comment is - it's a good, interesting and reflective one..  from his writing, i think he is a mature guy.. from his experience too, i think i have a good life..  not that i compare..but i tried to put myself into his shoes.. and i dont think i would be able to go through or handle the life he went through. I come from a middle to upper class family the middle part is I still have to work hard for my life.  or bear with certain aspects of life which are not perfect enough.. and the upper part is that I have all my needs fulfilled...generally for example, I never have to worry about mone...

exam is coming soon.. arghh~ just around the corner... NOOOOOOO~ :(( need to study so many things OMG~ went out to buy dinner with some of my friends today iylia~ adib~ ema~ izuan~ syu syu <3<3 I bought my favourite chicken + fried rice sad to say, didnt get to buy my favourite corn~ the auntie did not open her stall for 2 weeks dyyyyyy :(( WHYYYYY???? I want ur jagung rebus~ please..i want jagung rebus!!!!! surprise! saw a old friend today... it has been 2 years...i could still recognize him... there's a moment, i thought i saw the wrong person... I knew it was him just refused to believe he looked the same...didnt change much... still the same style... but i changed a lot did i? i did. I am no longer the little girl who used to call u "Bear Dog" memories~ so... the conclusion is? no conclusion~ hahah xD

It's a  happy day, at first.. everything is on the right track we are friends again :) until.... my friends shared some posts posted by a lecturer take note please. a lecturer I like, not anyone.. u want more descriptions?  she is not black =P this is not a racist comment k.. just want to make sure u are clear with whom I wanna talk about.. according to her posts or statuses, I can see that she is disappointed, unhappy she said she wanna give up on us its time to do so, that is what she said... now, I sit here and think... oh ya..I was thinking.. :P I dont know what I was thinking.. just felt sad... what to do kan? does apology mean anything now? aduh.. pening kepala..

This is an angry post if you are not READY,  dont LOOK at it dont READ if you think you had done something which might happened to make me go crazy MAD or ANGRY do not READ too~ once upon a time,  my classmates always say, as a class.. should discuss, don't make decision without discussion... but tell me please.. why cant things be discussed earlier? just checked, i posted that "announcement" 4 hours ago. none of u replied until 1 hour ago. oh well. should I say I understand? (or I know) there were some problems..  so on and so on.. I dont want to blame you all for that.. oh wait. somebody replied earlier right  probably not an insult, but i took it as an insult, what did u say again? I think I remember.. u said things like u r havin problem, and  I still wanna have replacement EXCUSE ME did i not help to cancel the class just now? probably I did not if u didnt get the message. who is free en...

i am so depressed lately... why? becoz... my class was scolded.... for "dont know" how many times... most of the lecturers were angry with us.. some are still angry.. i know my class is lazy... with a lot of attitude problems... and me too...was frustrated... but what can i do? and now...our beloved mentor mr wang is leaving.. getting more and more depressed the only lecturer who wont get too angry with us and loves us...and cares about us.. is leaving.... and i feel so lost... now...i am going to be "fatherless" and i have nothing much to say..

sometimes some people would wonder how i deal with my life, the "special" part of my life they would wonder, if there is future. oh well, i never really think about it, coz i ignored it. until today, when i realized the differences in between, the possible outcomes, the risks... i slowed down... something like decision was made.. not alone, 3 hours ago... its never easy for the decision to be made struggle tears pain after all... we can only wait and see... if rainbow would come or only the storm... if u r reading. wish me luck. luck for? i have no idea too.. i wish for the best... (i questioned myself: what so good about getting the best?) u wont care about the best if u have what u want :(

the worst birth month i ever had in my 20 years life.  i can only use this quote to describe my feeling:  Chas. Austin Bates   It is the trouble that never comes that causes the loss of sleep. lived in fear, worries, sadness. all i can do is to pray for better day after all. i tried so hard to be positive, but life will not be kind to us i guess. i experienced bad or unfortunate things one after another. my mother keeps telling me is just my mindset  but how come everything happened within such a short period. i lost so many expensive things, involved in car accident, scratched my car.. my plan is ruined, heart broken coz of a friend, made mistakes, '  my thumb was injured during netball,  and a preschool kid sat on it again..pain.. parked my car beside velodrome and got blocked by another car..stuck.... suffered stomachache for 3 days and it does not feel okay yet, cried, sighed.. did not perform well during preschool session, lost our mop du...