Thursday, December 20, 2012

KiaOra Kiwi-land

its 1.49am in the morning....
so yeah...holiday is going to end soon..
and I am going to miss this holiday so much!

what did i do?

I went to New Zealand in November.. a few days after the break started,,
spent 2 weeks without mummy daddy and siblings by my side... 
had so much fun over there and I cant describe it in words... or using pictures..
For this trip, I also got to experience my first flight in the business class cabin..
its awesome but disappointing at the same time.. 
so the awesome part, I got to enjoy a real comfortable flight with great food, drinks and service.. the cheese, the beef, the wine, all the fruit juices.. u can have all of them and the airbus crews will still smile to u..
 the disappointing part would be humans are cruel? or money really affects life!
i bought the business class tickets not on purpose.. and hafta buy an economy one 
for the return ticket.. 
guess what, I received a total different kind of service
attitude, food, everything... anything u can list...
and i might want to buy business class tix in future cuz good flights are essential to start and end a trip..

In New Zealand, I experienced real windy weather.. it was so cold..
that I hafta keep myself near stove or blankets or heater most of the time..
my very first experience with heaters! 
the scenery - too beautiful.. I couldnt capture the greatness or the awesomeness using my camera and I felt so blessed for having good eyesight.. 
with them, I can look at all those beautiful stuffs and places.. 
unless my eyes deceive me 
the clouds, the mountains, the fields, the animals and the blue2 sky..
And I wonder...
Do we really live under the same sky? cuz the sky looks so different  in Malaysia
even the cows there are "handsomer" =P

To me, the trip is also like a trial or test..to live without my parents and family members..
so..am I capable of living on my own?
the answer is No... I miss them so much.. 
everyday I would think of them and miss them and err..
promise to treat them better when i am back. =p
to be a better daughter and sister.. :)

By the way, bought a new camera for this trip too 
THANKS to dear mummy!
she bought a Nikon J1 for me..
too bad the Galaxy came out later..
but I do love my J1... err..just too lazy to clean the lens =p

<3 everyone..
i hope school wont start forever =P


Thursday, November 1, 2012

random check. xD

omg..
this is so funny~
hahaha xD
was just doing some random check on my blog

and i found this..
like seriously?!
i know this kind of stuff is "common" xD

i need a moment to breathe
oh madness.

this is real funny..
feel like clicking it actually =P


so yeah.. the cat...baked a cake inside the toilet again...
busuk teramat...

haish~ nitez

Saturday, October 27, 2012

post stats

just checked my post stats..
apparently..

the post which receives the most number of pageview for this month

 is the latest post.

the post i used to convey hatred

i am very clear with the fact

that i shouldnt dislike u

but yeah. i dislike u.

bahahhaa xD boring hor if u read the previous post and this one.

its abt the same stuff la =P

SORRY

a random status (i didnt post la)

it makes u feel so sad when u find out about how fast a person can change his or her mind within seconds.. and when they leave.. its like a tsunami which hits and leaves u only scars and sadness. 

Sunday, October 14, 2012

random post

it has been so long...
well..too busy to post anything...
and i dont feel like sharing my recent stories with anyone...

but since i have time..
i am going to write something...

hey u..
yes.. u..
i am talking to u..
i dont wanna meet u by any chance.
but yeah. we met.
and yeah. u smiled to me.
u cared about my ***
so what?
if i smile too, i was just being fake.
just wanna hide it from u..
about how much i dislike u
for disturbing my life.
so shut the **** up, 
and stay away from my life

so yeah. dislike me too.
i know u did
u do


Thursday, August 9, 2012

You leave me Breathless.


if our love was a fairy tale
I would charge in and rescue you
On a yacht baby we would sail
To an island where we'd say I do

And if we had babies they would look like you
It'd be so beautiful if that came true
You don't even know how very special you are

Chorus

You leave me breathless
You're everything good in my life
You leave me breathless
I still can't believe that you're mine
You just walked out of one of my dreams
So beautiful you're leaving me
Breathless

And if our love was a story book
We would meet on the very first page
The last chapter would be about
How I'm thankful for the life we've made

And if we had babies they would have your eyes
I would fall deeper watching you give life
You don't even know how very special you are

You leave me breathless
You're everything good in my life
You leave me breathless
I still can't believe that you're mine
You just walked out of one of my dreams
So beautiful you're leaving me

You must have been sent from heaven to earth to change me
You're like an angel
The thing that I feel is stronger than love believe me
You're something special
I only hope that I'll one day deserve what you've given me
But all I can do is try
Every day of my life

You leave me breathless
You're everything good in my life
You leave me breathless
I still can't believe that you're mine
You just walked out of one of my dreams
So beautiful you're leaving me
Breathless

You leave me breathless
You're everything good in my life
You leave me breathless
I still can't believe that you're mine
You just walked out of one of my dreams
So beautiful you're leaving me
Breathless

Wednesday, August 1, 2012

Unknown

 "Be prepared"
is the first thing i learn as a girl guide
but, I am not always prepared
I am afraid of the feeling
of waiting
for the unknown to come

some people said.
why worry?

i said.
I am used to it
being afraid of everything in my life.

Luckily, I have family who loves me
friends who care about me
like today, I have Ima and May

truly grateful for having them in my life
 truly grateful for every breath

I know I can't stay depressed.
I know I can't let my spirit sink

One of my fav singers - One of my fav songs

I looked away
Then I look back at you
You try to say
The things that you can't undo
If I had my way
I'd never get over you
Today's the day
I pray that we make it through

Make it through the fall
Make it through it all

[Chorus:]
And I don't wanna fall to pieces
I just want to sit and stare at you
I don't want to talk about it
And I don't want a conversation
I just want to cry in front of you
I don't want to talk about it
Cuz I'm in Love With you

You're the only one,
I'd be with till the end
When I come undone
You bring me back again
Back under the stars
Back into your arms

[Chorus]

Wanna know who you are
Wanna know where to start
I wanna know what this means
Wanna know how you feel
Wanna know what is real
I wanna know everything, everything

I'm in love with you
Cuz i'm in love with you

Wednesday, July 25, 2012

confused

I was so confused.
I am so confused.
I am still so confused~

:((

u confused me.
u confuse me..
u will confuse me :((

I dont really wanna blame you~
but u made me~

sorry

Sunday, June 3, 2012

if you did this...


if you ever did this ^____^

i <3 doing this when I was a kid~ hehehehe
if you ever played this :D

there were no gameboys, PS this and that..
but we have this! :D
i did this too! :D



POST saw on Fb

 i wanna share about some interesting posts i saw on facebook...


my comment: this is so true~ :) but i havent experience this yet, so not going to talk much about it. 
if you read, think ya about it.
 I think it's a chance for everyone to judge ourselves if you are in any relationship.


my comment: I dont agree with it actually. cuz "yourself" is not perfect and sometimes it can be bad.
for example, u cant tell a thief to be yourself for the reason stated in the quote.
stealing is still wrong. people mind it not because they matter the thief.. 
they matter the act and values. 

besides, if you matter a person, of coz u hope for the best..
If you matter a person who  is a thief, and u know stealing is wrong, of coz u want him not to steal too.
unless you are a thief too...and u have no values.. and conscience...



the third post is about result and exam...
so what do u think about this pic strips? agreE? experience it before?

I have been both a good and a bad students in terms of result..
so i guess i understand the feelings of both of the characters in the pic.

I do tease people who answer that way. for example, debbie~ xD
haha~ when Debbie answers it that way, my friends and I will tease her like,
"dont jia jia la, later can score also one"

and when I say I cant answer the paper,
My classmates will say that I "tipu tipu" too~

the fact is, we cant guess right the result, 
I do study, but I think I cant do it..
eventually, if i score, it has nothing to do with me right
cuz I am not the one who mark the paper or come out with the real answers. 
I only answer what I know, and I doubt my answers...
that's why... 

so I guess I am still worried about my result..
Oh God, please bless me...

Saturday, June 2, 2012

So come on Girls, Guide!

Just came back from a camp~ 
so SO so Tired!!! feel so SO so Old!!!
hahaha xD I am 21 dy, and I went for camp with young guiders~
most of them are 13!! Form 1~
there were moments which are super awesome,
there were also moments which I thought "what am i doing here?" =P


ANYWAY, THE CAMP WAS AWESOME :)
and the awesome parts are:


1. We had great time with the guiders and children


We had some little campers following us around during the camp~
hahah xD and I really love their presence, cuz they made me laugh~
they enjoyed looking at us, when we cooked, when we ran, when we played..
and sometimes they followed :D 
like, when I was cooking the curry chicken and cabbage lemak with tempe, 
Ethan wanted to try and kept asking "Can I try? Can I stir?"
hey tasted the food i cooked, and commented "somethings missing..." 
with they super cute and serious tone and faces.
they also volunteered in helping to clean the dishes,
got me drinks when I was thirsty and busy cooking~ hOW sweet! ^_^
so thank you Ethan, Chantelle and 2 sisters of Joyce.


guiders! oh yeah! I almost forgot that I love guiding. 
I used to love guiding so much, put in so much effort...
and when I got into college...
I forgot all the skills, the passion and the feeling
Luckily, slowly  I got most of them back during the camp~
although it made me feel so old to camp with young campers..
I appreciated the experience. 


2. A talk by the Green man, Matthias Gelber


















For this part, I really need to thank Michaelle, I guess. :)
We learnt a lot about go green~ 
It feels so cool to have this session.
I feel so inspired! by him and his efforts in saving the earth.
I will try my best to do something for our earth! :)
I know I cant "save" the earth, but I will do something!
If possible, we shall see you again for the tree planting program in June.


3. Michaelle, our very pretty and crazy camp com of Pulau Haba


Michaelle, i know its not easy, but good job!


Michaelle planned real fun filled and cool activities for us,
she was good and organized. I really enjoyed working under her.
and Ethan is her brother :D 
I learnt a lot from her parents too~ Uncle and Puan Elsie~
sorry, i didnt know her dad's name~
but They taught us about recycling 
and using every resources we have in daily life...go green...
for example, making solar cooker, making papers, creating cute crafts..
and motivated us... A LOT
they were funny! cool! supportive! 


If i become parent one day, I want to be like them :)
or at least a teacher like them. 




we are the girl guides, 
always looking far and wide,
so come on girls, guide!
                      
                   Pulau Haba, 2012

Friday, May 25, 2012

HOLIDAY

Hooray! It's holiday!!!! :D It's time for shopping, movies, novels, travel~
hehe~ just by reading the first line, u can guess i like shopping the most :)
however, personally...shopping has always been a moral dilemma...
cuz I dont like to waste money for myself~ haishhh~


anyway...Holiday is also the time for me to read others' blogs. 
so...ya..i read a blog... 
my comment is - it's a good, interesting and reflective one.. 
from his writing, i think he is a mature guy..
from his experience too, i think i have a good life.. 
not that i compare..but i tried to put myself into his shoes..
and i dont think i would be able to go through or handle the life he went through.


I come from a middle to upper class family
the middle part is I still have to work hard for my life. 
or bear with certain aspects of life which are not perfect enough..
and the upper part is that I have all my needs fulfilled...generally
for example, I never have to worry about money 
except when I left secondary school for uni...


the only thing or factor which lead to my lack of capability in handling a life like his..
would be I was not trained to do it...maybe...
I can only put myself in his shoes and try to understand his feelings..
however, i WONT be able to gain full understanding or insight for me to lead a life like that..
i want to emphasize this..His life is not bad..it is meaningful..
but it requires the courage and thinking which I have yet to gain or achieve. 
which means. i dont have it now..


So his life...or his experience...has actually taught me to be more positive ..
for instance, Result does not mean everything...
(i was quite depressed with the fact that I wasnt able to perform well in this exam)
the love from parents should be appreciated and be paid back as much as I can..


Mum and Dad, I am sorry if I've made u angry or sad...or frustrated...
I know both of u place high expectation on me.. I will try me best to achieve it..
and I pray that you can stay with me until I have the capabilities to earn money..
spend money on u (just like what u do for me), give u my love and concern independently..
Independently cuz I am still spending ur money even when I get u some presents. 


and Of course, i want to try my best to improve myself during this holiday..
will still be spending some money of urs.. but i promise, I will try to control~ <3


last but not least
He is still young, and I really hope that he get to live a better life..
He definitely deserves more :)


to all of my friends, lets pray for him and urself
to be able to live a better life from now on,
as a human being, as a son or daughter, as friend, as student or as a pet owner.


& Happy Holidays! 


Home sweet home~ 

Wednesday, May 9, 2012

coming soon

exam is coming soon..
arghh~ just around the corner...

NOOOOOOO~ :((

need to study so many things
OMG~

went out to buy dinner with some of my friends today
iylia~ adib~ ema~ izuan~ syu syu <3<3

I bought my favourite chicken + fried rice
sad to say, didnt get to buy my favourite corn~
the auntie did not open her stall for 2 weeks dyyyyyy :((

WHYYYYY???? I want ur jagung rebus~
please..i want jagung rebus!!!!!

surprise!
saw a old friend today...
it has been 2 years...i could still recognize him...
there's a moment, i thought i saw the wrong person...
I knew it was him
just refused to believe
he looked the same...didnt change much...
still the same style...
but i changed a lot
did i?
i did. I am no longer the little girl who used to call u "Bear Dog"
memories~

so...
the conclusion is?
no conclusion~ hahah xD




Thursday, May 3, 2012

right track?

It's a  happy day, at first..
everything is on the right track
we are friends again :)
until....
my friends shared some posts posted by a lecturer
take note please.
a lecturer I like, not anyone..

u want more descriptions? 
she is not black =P
this is not a racist comment k..
just want to make sure u are clear with whom I wanna talk about..

according to her posts or statuses, I can see that she is disappointed, unhappy
she said she wanna give up on us
its time to do so, that is what she said...

now, I sit here and think...



oh ya..I was thinking.. :P

I dont know what I was thinking..
just felt sad...

what to do kan?
does apology mean anything now?

aduh.. pening kepala..





Wednesday, May 2, 2012

SO U TEACH ME PLEASE

This is an angry post
if you are not READY, 
dont LOOK at it
dont READ

if you think you had done something which might happened to make me go crazy
MAD or ANGRY
do not READ too~

once upon a time, 
my classmates always say, as a class..
should discuss, don't make decision without discussion...
but tell me please..
why cant things be discussed earlier?
just checked,
i posted that "announcement" 4 hours ago.
none of u replied until 1 hour ago.
oh well.
should I say I understand? (or I know)
there were some problems.. 
so on and so on..
I dont want to blame you all for that..

oh wait. somebody replied earlier right 
probably not an insult,
but i took it as an insult,
what did u say again?
I think I remember..
u said things like u r havin problem, and 
I still wanna have replacement

EXCUSE ME

did i not help to cancel the class just now?
probably I did not if u didnt get the message.

who is free enough kan to forward any message when there's flood?


FINE


So now..I sms-ed some people just now.
to get something from me
or to talk

did anybody reply to my message?

am i a maid to u or wut? to take care of ur stuff?
or to chase after u to remind u for this and that?
maybe u r busy
maybe u dont have any credit to reply
when you stay at the same place as mine

GREAT

dont ask me if i wanna become a rep again

NO WAY

i bet they dont want to have me as the rep as well
because people take it as cruelty when u r serious about a job and 
serious about a conversation - people take it as an insult

SO U TEACH ME PLEASE

what to do