A Teacher & A Diver

As I grow older, I start to accept death as the destiny of my life.  Therefore, I decided to write this post, just in case I die during this holiday.  Oh ya, its school holiday. Happy Holiday everyone! at least for a week. Back to why I wanted to write this post.... A lot of shits happened these few weeks...and I couldn't make a lot of clarification and explanation before I left the college this evening.  Or, in simpler words, I have lots of undone business in college... I would like to clarify everything before I left, but something happened and I did not get to do so...Then the holiday started...Maybe I should do it after the break...(i think) But, just in case I die, maybe people can find the clarification they need from me through this post... So let me give you some brief description of what happened (from my point of view) fyi: I did not view myself as a victim...I just felt disappointed with u people that I treated as friends secara ikhlas....

when I was younger,  I thought that my family was rich as I never had problems when it came to buying the things I wanted... and the fact that my mom works for my uncles who own a few shops, I assumed that its family business and we were rich... and Of coz I thought I would have the chance to achieve all my dreams like studying abroad... Then when I got into upper secondary school, I started to understand the real situation... we were not rich at all... and we might be poor...why? the family business that I thought is ours (every family members) is not ours... and my dad's business wasn't going well.. my mom works for the salary, and we are lucky cuz she gets a lot of benefits from the job... then i started praying to become super rich... especially when I wasnt allowed to study abroad as we did not have the money.. and I was asked to go into a teacher training institute to reduce financial burden... and saw my brother going into a private college as he did not ...

Hello December... It's the last month of the year, finally... And it feels really good to have a long break after this semester.. I really hope that with this break, I could prepare myself for my final year in this programme.  Gosh... I am freaking nervous... not ready at all for the final year... And when I found out that my seniors are attending the SPP interview dy, I feel more nervous and lost.. Will mine come right after the exam as well? I hope...so....maybe this will help to maintain my level of motivation and passion for this career before the long break begins... Seriously, I dont know what to talk about now because the break has not been very fun and interesting.   I guess I will continue tomorrow. Bye and good night. 

messsss... I am a mess... When I am supposed to study and get my self ready for exam, Here I am, trying to do all sort of things but studying... so here's the story that I couldnt think of a title... guess the reason for this problem is that its a true story. so for the sake of that good friend,  I am not going to expose her name forever. but I couldnt hold myself from writing the story cuz its sad.. i couldnt find ways to help her... and I am not in any position to help her or ask her to do anything... once upon a time, a friend of mine knew a boy during her secondary school time.. they knew each other online and agreed to go on a date.. soon they fell in love.. but thats not the end of the story. the boy stopped going to school and started working. personally, the occupation doesnt sound like a good one.. so not going to share about it but thats not the main point, the guy was and is much older than my friend.. as a man (literally - age) he had sexual needs.....

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its 1.49am in the morning.... so yeah...holiday is going to end soon.. and I am going to miss this holiday so much! what did i do? I went to New Zealand in November.. a few days after the break started,, spent 2 weeks without mummy daddy and siblings by my side...  had so much fun over there and I cant describe it in words... or using pictures.. For this trip, I also got to experience my first flight in the business class cabin.. its awesome but disappointing at the same time..  so the awesome part, I got to enjoy a real comfortable flight with great food, drinks and service.. the cheese, the beef, the wine, all the fruit juices.. u can have all of them and the airbus crews will still smile to u..   the disappointing part would be humans are cruel? or money really affects life! i bought the business class tickets not on purpose.. and hafta buy an economy one  for the return ticket..  guess what, I received a total different kind of service a...

omg.. this is so funny~ hahaha xD was just doing some random check on my blog and i found this.. like seriously?! i know this kind of stuff is "common" xD i need a moment to breathe oh madness. this is real funny.. feel like clicking it actually =P so yeah.. the cat...baked a cake inside the toilet again... busuk teramat... haish~ nitez