Sunday, March 28, 2010

不知我脆弱了

还是我根本就是如此

好失望

我对自己真的很失望

那么的没有效率

我还是觉得我很少朋友~

命运

我好不甘心

我的真心

渐渐被现实

淹没了


只想

停下来

Friday, March 26, 2010

officially single

playing around

i am still single

looking around

i am still single

little blue girl is in an open relationship with Joejo la~

he was just passing by~

and he won't stop for me~

thats why i only want Joejo..hahaahaha xD

Wednesday, March 24, 2010

遗失了

遗失了

那个爽朗的我

不见了

那个从前的我


不再是我

果然


是不能在另一个人身上找到自我的

我犹豫

徘徊

值得吗?


grizzle

i hate this~

so insecure

like a child

grizzles for this and that

hopeless

the defendant is still blurr

i am tired of this~

this is not fun at all~

Monday, March 22, 2010

on my mind

as days passed

my mood is trying to convince me that this is not what i want

i am so tired of this

my portfolio is well done and elected for MQA

that is a good news

but i know that is not my work

not all

just most of it

my roommate is the one who helps a lot

i owe her~ but i got nothing to pay back

my exam s*cks

this is the result of depending on technology too much

i~

dunno

should

i

hate

myself?

i stayed up late

i say don't need you to acc

seriously u left me alone

i wonder will i get mad and mrajuk

then ask for break up~ lalalla

girls = unpredictable

predict me please

see what i will do~

Sunday, March 7, 2010

I doubt

I doubted~

should i?

should i not?

continue?

or just stop?

i wonder..

i doubt..

i know that he is serious..

but how serious he is?

i know that he is sincere..

but how sincere he is?

he left me so...

maybe i should leave him so too~


Friday, March 5, 2010

date? la~ so awkward~

awkward ...

so so so...

20 eyes on us~

so so so

not natural...

i think i just forgot how to eat...

i just can't focus..

thinking how to save my reputation..

omg~ pls don't spread the news~

and rain~

so so so

ruin~

Thursday, March 4, 2010

struggle~ confusion~

i am so tired

so tensed

so stressed

so speechless

this week is too heavy

will today be one too?

i want to rest~

without thinking of anything

i am going out~

for a date? perhaps~

i am like a little girl~

but i want a lot

too greedy..

perhaps~

i don't belong to here

what do u think?

i am just too weak i guess

i questioned:

who am i today?

i have no answer but smiling

tell me what a smile can mean?

aku masih aku?

i am not sure~ for sure~ i am not Julyan anymore~