struggle~ confusion~

i am so tired

so tensed

so stressed

so speechless

this week is too heavy

will today be one too?

i want to rest~

without thinking of anything

i am going out~

for a date? perhaps~

i am like a little girl~

but i want a lot

too greedy..

perhaps~

i don't belong to here

what do u think?

i am just too weak i guess

i questioned:

who am i today?

i have no answer but smiling

tell me what a smile can mean?

aku masih aku?

i am not sure~ for sure~ i am not Julyan anymore~