A Teacher & A Diver

不知我脆弱了 还是我根本就是如此 好失望 我对自己真的很失望 那么的没有效率 我还是觉得我很少朋友～ 命运 我好不甘心 我的真心 渐渐被现实 淹没了 我 只想 停下来

playing around i am still single looking around i am still single little blue girl is in an open relationship with Joejo la~ he was just passing by~ and he won't stop for me~ thats why i only want Joejo..hahaahaha xD

遗失了 那个爽朗的我 不见了 那个从前的我 我 不再是我 果然 人 是不能在另一个人身上找到自我的 我犹豫 徘徊 值得吗？

i hate this~ so insecure like a child grizzles for this and that hopeless the defendant is still blurr i am tired of this~ this is not fun at all ~

as days passed my mood is trying to convince me that this is not what i want i am so tired of this my portfolio is well done and elected for MQA that is a good news but i know that is not my work not all just most of it my roommate is the one who helps a lot i owe her~ but i got nothing to pay back my exam s*cks this is the result of depending on technology too much i~ dunno should i hate myself? i stayed up late i say don't need you to acc seriously u left me alone i wonder will i get mad and mrajuk then ask for break up~ lalalla girls = unpredictable predict me please see what i will do~

I doubted~ should i? should i not? continue? or just stop? i wonder.. i doubt.. i know that he is serious.. but how serious he is? i know that he is sincere.. but how sincere he is? he left me so... maybe i should leave him so too~

awkward ... so so so... 20 eyes on us~ so so so not natural... i think i just forgot how to eat... i just can't focus.. thinking how to save my reputation.. omg~ pls don't spread the news~ and rain~ so so so ruin~

i am so tired so tensed so stressed so speechless this week is too heavy will today be one too? i want to rest~ without thinking of anything i am going out~ for a date? perhaps~ i am like a little girl~ but i want a lot too greedy.. perhaps~ i don't belong to here what do u think? i am just too weak i guess i questioned: who am i today? i have no answer but smiling tell me what a smile can mean? aku masih aku? i am not sure~ for sure~ i am not Julyan anymore~