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Earthquake

I have never seen nor experienced an earthquake. So, I always wonder what an earthquake is like? Does one feel dizzy during an earthquake? Does one feel shaken in an earthquake? Or does it feel like what is being shown in movies? With shaking buildings and people running everywhere while screaming for help/. The one day, my earth quaked. Maybe that's how earthquake feels like? I was sick, with chicken pox, sleeping at home, feeling dizzy and was expecting nothing. Then a friend texted me, "Do you know your boyfriend has been cheating on you with my friend?" I was shaken. I replied immediately asking, "Who is that girl?" Once I got her number, I texted her - "Have you been meeting my boyfriend?" I was not surprised, honestly. But I was scared and I freaked out when she replied, "Yes, for a few months, and I feel very bad about it. You are a nice person I would not want to hurt, but I can't help it. He treats and cares for me li

I need to talk

after so long, I am writing this because I need to talk... I need to talk to somebody, but I dont want to worry anyone or make other feels the same way. So if you are reading this, thank you for reading/ listening to my inner voice... it has been 4 months since my first posting to an island in Klang called Pulau Ketam. Life has been wonderful and bad at the same time... I enjoyed my life very much over here. to the extend that I think I could stay here for a few more years... but things started to change lately, not that I dont like here anymore.. I just wish I could stay near him... nearer to him to take care of him... who is that he or him right? just somebody I love. so what happened was he got into an accident. This is not a joke, it's a bike accident. the thing I prayed so hard to never see again was him getting into any accident especially bike... after my friend's accident long long time ago... I warned him everyday to be extra careful on roads. a

Just in case I die

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As I grow older, I start to accept death as the destiny of my life.  Therefore, I decided to write this post, just in case I die during this holiday.  Oh ya, its school holiday. Happy Holiday everyone! at least for a week. Back to why I wanted to write this post.... A lot of shits happened these few weeks...and I couldn't make a lot of clarification and explanation before I left the college this evening.  Or, in simpler words, I have lots of undone business in college... I would like to clarify everything before I left, but something happened and I did not get to do so...Then the holiday started...Maybe I should do it after the break...(i think) But, just in case I die, maybe people can find the clarification they need from me through this post... So let me give you some brief description of what happened (from my point of view) fyi: I did not view myself as a victim...I just felt disappointed with u people that I treated as friends secara ikhlas.  So ..

I wish

when I was younger,  I thought that my family was rich as I never had problems when it came to buying the things I wanted... and the fact that my mom works for my uncles who own a few shops, I assumed that its family business and we were rich... and Of coz I thought I would have the chance to achieve all my dreams like studying abroad... Then when I got into upper secondary school, I started to understand the real situation... we were not rich at all... and we might be poor...why? the family business that I thought is ours (every family members) is not ours... and my dad's business wasn't going well.. my mom works for the salary, and we are lucky cuz she gets a lot of benefits from the job... then i started praying to become super rich... especially when I wasnt allowed to study abroad as we did not have the money.. and I was asked to go into a teacher training institute to reduce financial burden... and saw my brother going into a private college as he did not

Hello December

Hello December... It's the last month of the year, finally... And it feels really good to have a long break after this semester.. I really hope that with this break, I could prepare myself for my final year in this programme.  Gosh... I am freaking nervous... not ready at all for the final year... And when I found out that my seniors are attending the SPP interview dy, I feel more nervous and lost.. Will mine come right after the exam as well? I hope...so....maybe this will help to maintain my level of motivation and passion for this career before the long break begins... Seriously, I dont know what to talk about now because the break has not been very fun and interesting.   I guess I will continue tomorrow. Bye and good night. 

Any suggestion for the title? virginity?

messsss... I am a mess... When I am supposed to study and get my self ready for exam, Here I am, trying to do all sort of things but studying... so here's the story that I couldnt think of a title... guess the reason for this problem is that its a true story. so for the sake of that good friend,  I am not going to expose her name forever. but I couldnt hold myself from writing the story cuz its sad.. i couldnt find ways to help her... and I am not in any position to help her or ask her to do anything... once upon a time, a friend of mine knew a boy during her secondary school time.. they knew each other online and agreed to go on a date.. soon they fell in love.. but thats not the end of the story. the boy stopped going to school and started working. personally, the occupation doesnt sound like a good one.. so not going to share about it but thats not the main point, the guy was and is much older than my friend.. as a man (literally - age) he had sexual needs..

需要人陪

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